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Okay, the name, it came from my mom. She’s like a therapist and I said “I had a really fucked childhood” and she said “Well, Courtney, you can’t walk around with a big hole inside yourself about it.” Then I realized that a lot of different kinds of anger and stuff came from my hole, this hole that needs to be fed - that angst inside a person is like their hole…Like when you feel that human emptiness and you have to feed it…We’re trying not to be obscene, we’re trying not to be gross. We’re trying not to be anything, we’re just a vapor of fucking hell that passes through your hole and out the other side, and if it leaves a fucking impression then it’s fucking great.

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Give up yourself, and you will find your real self. Lose your life and you will save it. Submit to death, the death of your ambitions and favorite wishes every day and the death of your whole body in the end: Submit with every fiber of your being and you will find eternal life. Keep back nothing. Nothing that you have not given away will be really yours. Nothing in you that has not died will ever be raised from the dead. Look for yourself, and you will find in the long run only hatred, loneliness, despair, rage, ruin, and decay. But look for Christ and you will find Him, and with Him everything else thrown in.